Six Months Later...

i slammed this about the same time as my last post but nevah posted. must've been too busy keeping the buzz. check it.

SIX MONTHS TO GO:

TIME AND OPTIONS RUNNIN OUT FAST

GONNA LOSE IT ALL

GOTTA STOP LIVIN IN THE PAST

BLOGGIN HEALS THE DEBT MY SOUL DOES OWE

ANOTHA LIFE DIAGNOSED FATAL

ONLY SIX MONTHS TO GO

REALITY SINKS IN

NO MO NINE LIVES - ALL SPENT

ONLY SIX MONTH TO GO

A HOME AND A WIFE TO HONOR

A BRILLIANT SON AND A BEUTIFUL DAUGHTAH

BEING SOBER IS HARD

GOTTA NOT WANT THE GANGHA

MY LIFE STANDS IN THE BALANCE

ONE TOKE AND AND I'LL THROW

ALL MY EFFORTS GONE - UP IN SMOKE

ONLY SIX MONTHS TO GO

... the life diagnosed fatal was claimed three months earlier than expected. and at only age 45 was ended much sooner than proper. this blog is dedicated to my bro - johannes franciscus

and yes i have stayed sober six months. /EDJ

WTF....?

so another bout of insomnia prompts a random blog. no suprise here. its all part of the process - right?

the tedious thoughts pounding through my cranium include: squishing spiders, reviewing install steps with the umpteenth caller, remembering / changing passwords, more phreaking passwords, fiixng my relationships, healing, coping, succeeding and all while mourning yet another loss.

and then there's the painful reminder that all is not lost - yet. so much has been taken from me and it feels like much as been given by me yet the scales seem to never even out. positive economic indicators my ass. not that i'm crying... its been months since that's happend and then years and years before the aforementioned [and very brief] incident. thereapy - fuck. explain how am i supposed to feal better if i cry...? tbs imho.

but a sliver of a moon reminds me that even when it seems dark there is a bright light shining - albeit elsewhere. i can look fwd to SSP, ST on my SCMTB, daLane and getting a good grind on. thats the flow... when do i go?

i ask to expand my territory... gotta strong jones for the corp funded expense acct. road trip. processing new visuals/sounds/experiences always seems to help.

and if your still reading this... wassup with that?!?

HOOT!

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/edj