HAIRY BIRTHMARK - to moi
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Letting go is a gift for myself
if i choose
to end an addiction
of internalized abuse

at a young age i thought
shame was mine - alone
constantly replaying memories
to understand what I'd done

the chaos, the lies
love cast aside
myself i dispised
in-difference i saw
when i looked in my eyes

complicated my life
old behaviors worn blind
sought any relief
to get out of my mind

fought all, did drunk, been coked, smoked rope...
groped, felt, bent, prone, all chillingly bare
yet never emotionally exposed

till bottom hit – not once - twice - three;
got chained and fired, drop kicked-out.
got to pay the price
my only friend  - a JD - to whom i pay a fee
plus a mortgage and rent
yet for only me

Higher Power never left me
in His hands my life's re-newed

This pain's mine – it WON'T hold me down
that i am alive to FEEL IT is a miracle - devine!
my brain through spiritual growth - retrained
and self-worth i WILL re-claim

i choose to trust – My Lord completely
in His way – Give Praise And Glory!!!
Walk this Path - in His light
Join us on our Eternal Journey...